I'll admit. It's not like I wanted to elicit a reaction from the system that makes me seem like I am someone that glorifies things against the Reddit terms of service. My hope was that nobody would counter-opinion me anymore because I felt that my position as an anti-natalist was completely valid & I didn't want my mind changed. Like, people may argue that if I got more responsible in my own life, then maybe I would stop being an anti-natalist and then perhaps just leave many of the positions that I hold now on the shelf. Of course there's a small problem with that. One, when exactly am I supposed to become more responsible in my own life and become more like my parents? The age my parents were when they had my two elder siblings has both come and gone already and I didn't have any of the life events necessary for me to happen nor ideal situation for me to be a father in. And two, even if the situation did allow me to become a father, I'm not really desirous of bringing into the world a child that may make the miserable existence of humanity any better. "I'll emphasize "may" here, due to the fact it's not an assured thing."
While it is true that the religion I associate with yet never speak about often is one of the reasons I've chosen to become anti-natalist by choice, similar to my choice to be remaining single by choice in terms of relationship. However, that similarity ends with both my choice to be anti-natalist as well as my decision to remain single. In the case of the former, (for context, being anti-natalist), I believe that I shall remain anti-natalist for the rest of my life, however long or short it may end up being, never intending to inflict nor glorify violence against those who hold viewpoints that clash with my own and therefore will likely not have a problem with the idea of my own paternal line dying. I mean, my family name is by no means an elite dynasty of royalty, nor some patriarchal line which must continue for "generation upon generation." I cursed myself to be the last family member of the high school I was a student at during the year I went back there extra for a reason after all.
However, my decision to remain single is less set in stone. While it is true that anyone who would consider me attractive would want to even get a chance to know me a little bit better, I'm not just going to throw myself at them like I don't value myself at all. I believe that if someone really deserves me, or I find that they are the type I find the most appealing in this very world, then I'm probably willing to open myself up to them. For the time being, I'm not entirely open to be looking for a relationship with anybody since I'm not the least bit interested in being with the wrong person to spare myself the potential heartache and misery, plus having to shred my Twitter account, (I mean, X account), that I had created this time, because the whole idea of it is that I would only keep it open until the moment happened that I got closer with a potential partner than merely an online relationship in this day and age. If and when that point occurs, I'll know for sure. I may end up throwing a mock memorial service for that media account when said point does indeed happen.
So, I conclude this blog post with the thought that while it is true that I chose to deviate from my usual topic for this blog, the fact remains, I've proven to be far too edgy for the platform that doesn't want me to be too edgy and I may be planning to look at the Reddit platform less and less often.
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